Now, I would gladly appreciate if you kept this section untouched. We all like honest people now, don't we.
layout tm / dd
Tuesday
Soul-sucking.
3/04/2008 10:41:00 PM
So as I start. Nothing new. Same old things yo. Anywho, it's close to 2 months already & we've been doing good. I can't explain it here but, I'm confident we'll make it. As long as possible. And I'm still loving you as much as I did the last time. Dreading for the hols to come so that I'll be able to spend some quality time with you, hun. :)
I experienced something weird last night, before turning in. Like, really bad. Have anyone of you ever felt like your soul was leaving your body at the moment before you sleep? You don't really realise when do you sleep right? You don't realise, when was the exact moment your eyes lay to rest & you doze off through the night. Well, I denied that occurrence, I guess. The moment my eyes laid to rest, I heard this ringing sound that was awfully annoying. It continued. So I tried to open my eyes, but guess what? I couldn't. I felt awake, but my whole body was dead. I couldn't budge an inch. I tried moving my arms, but they wouldn't budge. Everything was immovable. Fuck, even the ringing noise was beginning to increase in volume. I stopped struggling for a moment, hoping that the ringing noise would stop but no. All of a sudden, my fecking jaw began to vibrate. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK, I mean seriously. Like the spasm types. I felt as if I was being sucked out by something. I could fecking feel myself getting pulled out from my body. I tried preventing it from happening, then it stopped. Somehow, someway, I got out of the whateverthefuckhappened, then I tried getting up. Okay, my jaws felt sore. As though they'd just been shaken. Fuck. It may seem as if I'm making this up but, it fecking happened, & I didn't dare sleep after that. I can tell that it wasn't a dream, you know why? Because after closing my eyes, I immediately tried to open them, but to no avail. I wasn't like in a really sleep state, so I should've been able to open them up again. But I couldn't. Maybe it's true that, when you sleep, your soul gets taken away until you wake from your sleep. So maybe, in my opinion, I actually denied the occurrence of my soul getting out of my body. Maybe. I can't base my opinions based on my experience, who knows, others might have gone through another version of this, though it had happened a few times to me already. This may sound bullshit and all, but it's up to you whether you believe it or not.
