Now, I would gladly appreciate if you kept this section untouched. We all like honest people now, don't we.
layout tm / dd
Sunday
4/06/2008 07:59:00 PM
actually that day i wanted to post. tried twice but my computer fucked up. what happened actually was... i argued with dad.BIG BIG argument.shoutshout. and then i just fucked off from home. was about ...actually financial stuff.school and all. and damn ive been going to school alittle later than usual.and i notice how nice the skies are.mygod. how and now i wish i had those cams, den take pictures like for the whole day around s'pore. well yea.gee actually these problems are still at the back of my head. it manifests.and eats me up.im still not in good terms with dad.i cant look at his face.it makes me...idk...and i dont like talking to him.i know its bad.and what kind of a son am i? but gee.it takes awhile.i think.
i have alot of things i want to get. (not according to priority) yet. 1)white tops, polo tees, plain v-neck tees.(TOPSTOPSTOPS) 2)a class(settling that with Mr Feizal Ahyar) 3)punching bag 4)bermudas 5)black socks 6)boot blades(one of mine came off)
and you know all these things require what? money. i need money. i need a job. nvm that. after season, i wanna start a new life.im gonna cut my hair as a start XD -.-" im gonna train.im gona lose weight.im gonna learn MT.
just now lepaked with dzul.hell it was fun. at first he was reluctant to have a friendly spar. probably malas. but then after awhile we sparred, was fun siaa. learnt weaked points of myself and all.new stuff too... den....nth else happend.hahaha.
tmr i hav semi finals. my coached asked us to do homework for the weekend.that is to find a motivation-what do you want to achieve for.if he asks me about it, i want to say
sir, lets cut all the crap about doing this and that for a girl.been there, done that. now, its actually for my own self-dignity. not my dignity in others' eyes.but my own self.i think ive lost alot of myself. and i want to catchup.
