Now, I would gladly appreciate if you kept this section untouched. We all like honest people now, don't we.
layout tm / dd
Thursday
4/17/2008 10:44:00 PM
fuck la. if embarrassed say la.no need to be so...idk..sae like this that.just straight to my face.its much easier. by now, id probably think ud be angry coz im just assuming and claiming and accusing. but ive got my reasons.dont wna go out coz later people see?nonono not like ure parents or teir frens or fam frens. ure sch ppl see.ok ah i understnd ure sis tere.and yea today. wat has he got to do with anth about us?nothing.nothing at all.unless its image you talk about.you deny it.ok fine. then tell me the actual reason. yes i DONT understand. then tell me. If i come up to you and tell you what you told me, would YOU understand? and if i said ITS HARD TO EXPLAIN. whatcha think? i was close to doing what it wud take...close.so close.you know how long weve knwn each other?8 years.thats more than half of my life. and i was close to throwing it away. cant you like just see how much u mean to me? but heyy, thanks, u gave me a tight slap and i strt to realise what it really is. if that mattered so much, den forget it.coz no matter how much i change or try to, id still have that old scar that makes me a bad person.n I AM A BAD PERSON, in case you dont know. im not rich, not smart, not goodlooking, not successful.im nothing.n im sorry if im nt gd enuff.im sorry i had to send u that message n im sorry i had to write this here. n im sorry if all these times, i have never been enuff.
fuck.im just so fucking..ah. fuck la. n ive gt shiet to finsih up.cnt even think straight. have chem tmr.ahh fuck it la.ill get my time tomorrow.
ahh fuck ah hafta chill.tot wna tok like normal.n end like nicely... tell her the things ill be having tmr.. actually ill be having a bout tmr.first bout.reff-ed by coach. but well... sigh.
