Now, I would gladly appreciate if you kept this section untouched. We all like honest people now, don't we.
layout tm / dd
Sunday
5/18/2008 07:50:00 PM
ok sorry gaknye aku kasar bebual.tapi serriously.ko tau cerita sebenar.kenapa?aku betol tak paham. mungkin aku tak tau ko peh maksod atau niat ko.tapi kenapa ko tak bilang jek cerita betol?
ok ignore that. actually this post is for her only.coz...i just cant find a way to apologise. sometimes i even think its no use, because it doesnt change a thing. but i really have to. if i could give away something that could be of exchange, i would, but these things arent like gold or anything.its much more valuable than that. sometimes i just cant figure out how when you would do anything to protect someone you love and she would never even be the last person you would want to hurt and when you see her hurt, you feel hurt too.i just cant figure out how, in the end, you end up being the one whove hurt her. its stupid.and it hurts. i dont know why.but.you dont want her hurt but YOU hurt her??
im sorry..it does hurt to see you hurt.and please dont cry...that's the last thing i want to see you doing. you could smash me, or do anything to me. but dont cry. when you do, i feel i just cant be there for you.i cant hold you and tell you that its ok and that i love you. and yea it does hurt to see you cry. to be honest, sometimes i feel like the best way its that i should leave.and stop hurting you. because i feel that my presence itself can sometimes be hurtful. but when i think again, I'm afraid that if i leave, you wouldnt be okay. and then, i wouldnt be there anymore. I'm not saying that Ive been the one comforting you. I know that I'm not comforting enough.in fact maybe its the other way around. im really sorry. i really dont know how to apologise or do something for what ive done. if you have to, do what's right and what it takes. im willing to accept it. and yeaa, when you make decisions, please try not to think too much about how i would be. because, it was my mistake and every sinner must face the consequences of his actions. its just somehting i must do, whether it would hurt or id be the same, its just something i must face. again, i apologise. and i thank you once again for giving me so many chances because i know that forgiving means sacrifice. and also for making my life a wonderful one.
