please.stop.calling.
i.hope.you.understand.that.

dzul, at this time i need you.
or i need sif's hp which can block calls.

ok so yesterday was hellish.
aytie and dzul knows.
after a 'slap' from dzul to ask me to speak up,
and the realisation that ive been like a pathetic dog whos being kicked around,
i decided to speak up to dad.and well it went werse.
but it was worth it.
and its not only to dad that i have to...nevermind.i dont know.
i dont know whats been fuelling these shietts.issit the secrecy?
or just the deprivation.
but dzul seems to agree with me.
its not REAL weird.but it still is weird, at least.
lets let matters rest.there'll be another time.or not.
i.dont.know.

and hols finishing.
two things that im happy about that.
1)money moving out stops.money coming in starts.
2)hope in decrease of bad activities.

and yes im not over ranting
i am actually.i cant say much coz there isnt anything much.
but hell, its heaven n hell at the same time now.
nvm.theres always mrmarl

ahmad
when these small things hit you so much emotionally.