I really am not. And no doubt I feel very disappointed by that.
I just don't know why I can't be a new person. I know I am not
who I am. I know I am more capable than what I am right now,
but it's just that at this point of time, that part of me is still
concealing itself. And it doesn't wanna surface. I'm so annoyed.

Concerning the past few days, I'd say that everything went as
according to as planned, and such. Tuesday, the PC part. Heh.
Being a PC (Parade Commander) wasn't as easy as I thought.
After all, I only had one bloody day of rehearsal with Daniel.
NCC Day. 1st July 08. 7+am. I shouted my lungs out, yes.
We were a nervous wreck on the day itself, thank you.

And now, I'm still deciding, on which subject should I really
concentrate on. For that, I mean, my 6th subject in the L1R5
scoring system shit, which is either A Math, or D&T.
Personally, I'm thinking of concentrating on D&T more,
since I very well know myself that I really suck at both
Maths, but then again, everyone's the opposite. As in
my peeps of course. They all seem to be looking at the
opposite direction, which is concentrating on A Math instead.
Why? The answer's simple. They're all better at Math,
while I'm not. I'm too dumb to understand the simplest
things. And focusing on either one of them, in my opinion, is
much much better than dropping. Consider it a big decision.
And it's difficult to make, especially for someone like me.

So I guess, I'm not going anywhere after all. I'm just being that
stagnant me all over again. Nothing can bring me anywhere.
Nothing.

"Decisions in life are the hardest to make, cos it will either take you a huge step back, or a giant leap forward." -

Hasif.

PS. Anisa, I really love you no matter what.
It's not what we do, it's what we have for each other.